Happy Sadness

I have a condition

Joy in my own rendition

Opposite of what the norm conforms

For my happiness takes the form of a storm

Called sadness

Yes indeed

I have a happy saddness

Wallowing in the blues

Showering in tears

Swimming in a lake of self-pity

Deep as oceans

At first glance it may appear as if I'm drowning

I shake my head to that notion

Your eyes are deceived by my motion

See, I'm not drowning

I'm one with the tide

I glide with the stride

Heavy waves to you

But calming waters to me

Don't think of it as madness

I'm happiest in my sadness

Just like your happiness

provides you feelings of grandeur

My sadness provides me with a comfort

That extends beyond your level of understanding

My sadness is not a weight that I carry

Nor a hate that I carry

My sadness is like a woman I'd marry

Been knowing her since the childhood years

She's always been around

She's the only constant in my life

Although she could never pick me up

She never lets me down

Always right on time

When the mood calls for it

Call me crazy

Doesn't matter

I'm at peace with my happy sadness